sept 30, 2023

little drawing of the vocaloid kaai yuki i made. no sketch i just started rendering in grayscale n hueshifted/gradientmapped the colors :3

oct 1, 2023

drawing i did for frilldoll's homepage! this one took quite a while, but i like how it turned out. i rarely do fullbodies that are properly posed , so this was definitely a learning experience. it took several days for me to finish this one, because i fully rendered the body+clothes on seperate layers, so i can change her outfits/hair :3 i might also try to animate her a little !

aug 24th, 2023

a quick miwako drawing i did a little bit ago! i felt like i was able to complete this one at a good pace, not being too perfectionist on small details, until i got to the filtering/extra effects stage. i think i spent more time messing with gradient maps and 10239485 different blending modes than i spent actually drawing. which is why there's two versions, because i cannot decide which is better. next to each other, you would say the left one is nicer right? but i also think that by itself, the right one is easier on the eyes to look at. idk. so they're both here. enjoy.

aug 23rd, 2023

nekomura drawing i made a couple weeks. honestly, i like it! i tried new linework, n coloring techniques, which i think worked out well. this drawing is based off my figure of her that stands on my desk's top shelf.

recently, i've been feeling pretty unhappy with certain aspects of my art. i often forget how long i've come and how hard i've worked. whenever i start to feel this way, i'll go look at my older sketchbooks. this time, i stumbled apon an old nekomura drawing from early 2021.

now looking back on both, i can definitely see my improvement in the last two years. and yet, i still feel unhappy. i just can't seem to stop fixating on the flaws in my work. my vision always seems to be ahead of my skill, but i guess that's just what it's like to be an artist. if i can grow this much in two years, then if i keep working at it surely i will become and art God by my 30s or 40s or 50s, right? maybe then i will finally be satisfied with what i create.